|We had a beautiful white christmas.|
|Bridesmaids! And bride!|
|I got my eyes done at the MAC counter for the rehearsal dinner.|
|S in her going out outfit Friday night at Hub51- skinny jeans, hot pink lace top, and silver sparkly Toms!|
|As you can see I went for a dramatic look. We all wore mismatched black dresses. Mine was a simple sleeveless peplum, with a chignon and lots of makeup!|
|The bride and grooms Ketubah- a traditional Jewish marriage contract.|
What I do know is that I am a changed person. I can't go back to who I was a year ago. This is a good thing. I have spent so long wanting wanting wanting, wanting more, wanting to "catch up," wanting better, but when you live like that you are never ever just content with what you have. I'll never get anywhere if I don't appreciate what is here and now. I have to be content with my life as is. I have to be grateful for my life as is. No more if onlys and somedays. This is what you got, today, this moment. We don't know what tomorrow brings. It might be great, it might be bad. So love your life today. Super cliche I know, but I guess something in me just finally clicked. I HAVE to just love life, the way it is, in this exact moment. I can't sit and dream about tomorrow and some idea in my head of the way things are supposed to be. That day may never come, and it's a waste of time. Time you could spending appreciating your life, in the present.
So I guess that is kind of a resolution. I want to live in the present, and appreciate today. I don't want to spend my life hoping and dreaming. You'll never get what you want if you can't be happy in the here and now. The endless hopes and aspirations are such a burden to me, and so much self-imposed pressure. Always stressing and worrying and spending anxious nights wondering what is going to happen, so many things dangling above my head that are totally beyond my control. ENOUGH!
As for more tangible goals, sorry, I've just never been one of those people. I don't really have any fitness/body goals. I am grateful I've found a form of exercise I love (barre classes) and thanks to a (mostly) clean and low-carb, low-glycemic, grain/gluten/sugar/starch/alcohol free diet, I don't feel my eating habits need to be overhauled or called in to question. Did I overdo it over the wedding weekend? Yup, sure did. I ate poorly and paid for it, am still paying for it. Yikes my tummy just cannot handle SAD crap anymore. But I am back home, making bone broth for the first time and enjoying being in my own kitchen, where there are no gluten bombs, sugary treats, or other off-limit items to tempt me.
Some small things I'd like to accomplish this year would be getting out of the country to visit a new place, continuing to get a handle on my health issues, hopefully getting better control of my blood sugar, maybe a little bump in energy due to better thyroid management, making bone broth a REGULAR and ROUTINE part of my diet/day, relaxing a little bit when it comes to cleaning the house, and enjoying and appreciating my upcoming 30th birthday and 5 year wedding anniversary this summer! That's it really. Live in the moment. Love today. Make bone broth. Stay fit, get fitter. Potty train S. Help MKG go gluten free for good (he is GF at home, of course.)
As for a Whole30 recap, I am going to do one eventually, but I am reluctant to for a few reasons. The primary reason being I really did not follow it as closely as I would have liked. Sure, all processed foods, with carageenan etc were off limits. I had no cheese (but did have cream/butter) or legumes or peanuts at all. I did however occasionally have some dried fruit towards the end, and once I got to the wedding weekend, all bets were off. So really, I don't know if calling it a Whole30 is appropriate. It was what it was. I successfully weaned myself off artificial sweeteners, peanuts, legumes, and cheese, but have a ways to go when it comes to dried fruit. My biggest triumph remains the unsweetened coffee. I am still shocked I managed to swing that one. But now the thought of putting sweetener in my coffee is repulsive. A little cinnamon and some organic cream and I'm good to go.
Please excuse the length of this post, if you're still with me that is. I decided that due to our travel schedule, that we'd celebrate New Years tonight (January 2nd) as a family. I bought lobster tails and made vanilla pumpkin cupcakes, so stay tuned for recipes this week.
I hope 2013 is a kind year to you and yours. I hope if you had troubles, in 2012 or in years past, you can leave them behind and start fresh. I hope its a bright and light year, this year and all the years to come. And I hope you stay grain-free with me! XoXoGFG